It's dangerous. 
I get so excited 
I feel like a kid with raging hormones and puberty stricken thoughts 
You are so tender 
and fresh 
alive with energy and laughter 
you spoil me with words 
you tease me with silence 
you smile and I feel the glow 
 
short of breath 
i whisper and you 
nervous and tense shrouded in thoughts 
those of which you have never had before encompass and soothe 
and strangely make you ache and crave 
i embarrass and delight you 
i feel how much i want you coming out in my wordsthatyouthinkareharsh breath 
i ask and you reply 
no 
no don't stop 
I devour this and i want more... 
 
we talk and like you are prepping for an exam you prod me for questioning 
i will answer 
i will tell you anything 
i have always been this way 
since i have become me 
you ask and i detail... 
I blunder for this is not what you want 
 
i try 
 
i want to see you 
SEE as in , feel, taste, smell, experience you  
i want all of my senses to enjoy you 
i know that they will 
i sigh 
frequently 
you quell my stress 
you make me forget 
it seems like the start of a wonderful friendship 
or maybe more 
a fantasy 
Spring Break - Rite of Passage? 
Interesting 
I pressure you 
I always do 
sigh 
 
I wonder if this is what makes my relationships fall like the answer that you wanted? 
 
 
I look at you as i write 
i try to look past the fake glitz of the school picture 
the senior picture 
the grand daddy 
the dress 
the jewelry 
i delve deeper 
the skin i want to touch and smell and taste 
with my tongue 
you told me you like wet kisses 
i just like it wet 
 
there is so much to say 
your hair cascades 
red i imagine, like the dress... 
your lips 
your eyes i look deep into 
i try to feel what you felt then 
for that moment  
 
i stop 
 
sigh 
 
i have decided that for you and me i will just be me 
myself no holds barred 
we owe each other nothing 
so lets be us... no barriers...no hidden thoughts 
i wander again i wonder if this may shock you into submission 
 
i get frightened 
i do not wish to loose the most or at least one of the most significant things in my life right 
now 
 
i will gamble of course 
i always hate trying to be something i am not. 
after the first letter 
i knew 
 
i could be me for you 
7:40pm 2/27/95